It's time for me to grow up... more independent...

was talking to him just now... we have decided to grow up by ourselves... not to rely on each other... just... i think... this is consider as love?
love doesnt mean the couple must always to be tgth den that's called love.. nope...
i disagree with that... sometimes... love have to let go of your love ones... love have to sacrifices something for your love ones too... but this "love" feeling... is a great experience... when you get to meet a guy you really put all your heart into the relationship...
so right now... we just live our own way... no one will disturb each other... just... learn how to be a grown up human.. ^^ im going to be 20 soon... have to grow up ler...
i have to thanks to my bro for saying that sentence... after i heard that sentence from him... i stopped crying... and reflected with wad i was doing... :') and i know.. i have to study for my common test and not to cry like a crazy gal... yea :') thanks kor ^^ glad to have you as my brother :')
JESSICA!!! and The first guy who showed me what love is... GANBATTE!!!! :'3

the promises we had...

I rmb you said that im yours.. and i have agreed that... i hope... this promise will still carry on...

Im alone now... I can't share anythings with him anymore...

Hahahaa... I rmb.. the last patch we had... i told myself.. not to put 100% of my heart for you... and now... we broke up... I should be happy... but I cried...
I think he's also feeling sad... but he just dun want to let anyone know... he had made the choice and i know it's hard to stick with his choice... cuz in his heart.. he still loves me... we do love each other even till now... but... no use anymore... we wont be together anymore...
I rmb that we have agreed to watch many upcoming movies tgth...
during our holiday, he will accompany me to my childhood's place and memories..
During our long term break, we will go to Sentosa tgth...
During our 3rd anniversary, we will go and watch movie in gold class...
but now...
everything has gone... no more... he cant be the one who accompany me through my life anymore... i just love him so much.. miss him so much that when he cant meet me, i will be very pissed off... bcuz i cant see him... just hope that he will know why im so pissed...
now.. i miss his smile... his joke... his cute ^^V... his smell... his care... his misses... his hand... his hug... his kiss and his love... everything has disappeared just ytd...
Baby... If you are reading this post, i just want to tell you that... it's alright to fine a girl who is better than me... cuz im the girl who just give you stress but nth more... im sorry that i didnt do my part well... i love you baby...

Fad up with my life...

i dunoe wad happened to me... i just lose control of my emotions... i was supposed to be a cheerful gal... but... now... im not... just putting a fake smile on my face... i cant even understand myself already.. just hope... someone will pull me out of this emotion world... im really losing control... feeling.. depressed...

had fun during my bro's wedding ^^

i love this photo ^^ i took with my brother when i was half drunk... it's so long that we finally get to take this fun photo ^^ i will not lose this photo and other the rest of my photos that i took during my bro's wedding night ^^ hope my brother and my sao sao will last ^^ they have been tgth since they were sec 2 or 3... ^^ now.. they are 28 years old ^^ and they finally got married ^^ happy for them ^^ i was with them when i was a young kid.. about k2?? i think so ^^ i remembered.. when i was in my kinder garden school... i was waiting for someone to bring me back home... that time... it was raining heavily... and i saw my brother and sao sao.. came over and brought me home... my brother piggy back me ^^ and i think my sao sao helped me to carry my stuff.. ^^

so.. in conclusion... their love is really strong ^^ not everyone will last that long when they got tgth since secondary sch ^^ yup ^^

dont know why...

why... why will i feel the jealousy when he's with her... he told me he doesnt like her... however, the closeness between both of them.. it's like really irritating... i wish that i can just forget this feeling... i dun even want to feel anything... i rather be numb... cant feel anything for my life... and the next thing is that... hmmm... i cant say... but.. im just irritated with alot of thing... alot... just hope my common test end... and i can go out with my friends.. that will let me enjoy my life... and forget him... and everything... just hate it... when he's close to her... what if he saw im with a guy so close... i bet he will feel that way too...

hmmm... let's ignore the bad stuff... im going out soon ^^ with my FRIENDS!!! ^^ ohya... and going to meet a guy too ^^ met him in my school when i was sec 1... he stays near jurong point too ^^ den when anyone of us feels bored... we can just meet each other... meeting him for dinner and a movie ^^ just friends ^^ yupp... everyone wants me to enjoy my life.. stop thinking about him... sad about things... yea.. i know ^^ that's why im going out soon ^^ when i have done with my test ^^hmm... everyone is happy when i told them im going out with guys... hahahhaa.... yea.. i know the reason ^^ ENJOY MY LIFE!!! ^^

just saw this love quote

"If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with..." - unknown..
hmmm... love someone.. let them go... ok.. today... it still consider i love him.. so yea ^^ iwill let him go... but tml.. it wont be love anymore ^^ and of course not hate ^^ but just no more love already ^^ but of course i will let him go... he had said to me just now... his love is fading... (it's my negative cause it.. dun blame him ^^) so... i dun think... his love is mine in the beginning... hmmmm... he will return to me??? i dun think so... hahahhaha... i cant make him smile... so... of cuz he wont be back... and there will be lots of gals who can make him smile... or even laugh... hahhahahaha... i have been seeing lots of gals who can make him smile and laugh... so... yea ^^ im not the one ^^
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